This morning I received a note
from a reader named Michael who said, “I am so emotionally devastated that I have been struggling to keep myself safe from suicide.”
To Michael and anyone else who may be contemplating suicide, my heart goes out to you. I know you have more pain than you feel you can bear at this moment. This pain feels overwhelming and permanent right now, but with time and support, you will overcome it. You may not be able to see that right now because pain is clouding your judgement, but it is the truth.
The fact that you took the time to write me a note or to read this means that even while you are considering ending your life, at the same time there is some part within you that still wants to live. That’s a very good sign, a sign of the hope that is still within you. Listen to that part of yourself, and not to the part that has lost hope. You want to end your pain, not end your life. Those are two very different things, but they can get confused when the pain feels like too much to take.
I’m not a mental health professional, but I am someone who understands the pain you’re in and who cares deeply about you. I’d rather be able to sit and listen to you than communicate through this page, but that’s not possible. What is possible is for you to connect with someone who is able to listen, with empathy and without judgement. Please don’t try to deal with this alone. There are people who care and who will listen. I hope you’ll call one of the numbers below to connect with such a person.
U.S. and International Suicide Hotlines:
- National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (U.S.) — 1-800-273-8255
- International Suicide Hotlines
- A list of Resources for suicide prevention, post-attempt survivors and their families, U.S. and International
♥ You are not alone.