Memory Manipulation: An Investigation

Memory Manipulation: An Investigation

That summer was magical.

Can you remember it? An ethereal beauty veiled the world. Each moment was suspended in time that dripped like dark, sweet molasses. You swam naked in a black lake under a golden moon, whispering secrets only the wind will ever know. Sparkling stardust fell gently from the sky, and like a beam of light your laughter traveled to the end of the universe and back again. Love had come like a glittering gift bestowed upon you by some benevolent god. 

And then one day your true love looked into your eyes and said,

“I don’t know where you got the idea this was ever going to be anything more than an affair.”

I knew exactly where I got the idea: from him. He was trying to make me doubt my memory, trying to make me think I’d imagined it all or somehow misunderstood his intentions. It didn’t work, but I was rendered speechless by shock and bewilderment.

Although this was the most heinous of his attempts to make me doubt my memory, it was far from the only one. “I never said that!” was something I heard all too often. 

Did the psychopath you were involved with try to manipulate you in this way? If so, your input is needed in an investigation of memory manipulation.

University of Windsor researchers seeking participants to complete online survey about experiences in relationships with psychopaths

(THIS STUDY IS NOW CLOSED)

Researchers at the University of Windsor are interested in hearing about your experiences with suspected psychopaths. Use the link below to complete a screening questionnaire to determine if you are eligible to participate in the study:

https://uwindsor.ca1.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_2o8YW803Dtk15EF

For this screening questionnaire, you will be asked about a specific time when someone you suspect is a psychopath made you question your memory for a past event. This may have been because they told you that your memory was incorrect, that the events did not happen, or that other people have doubts about your experiences. The researchers are hoping to learn more about your experiences of remembering and communicating with suspected psychopaths about things that happened in the past.

Participation is completely voluntary and no identifying information will be connected with your responses. Participants who complete the screening questionnaire will be entered in a draw to win one of three $100 Amazon e-gift cards. Eligible participants who complete the full survey will receive a $5 Amazon e-gift card for their time.

Your participation in this research is important for gaining new knowledge about how individuals in relationships with psychopathic individuals remember past events. Please note, participation in the study may involve thinking about potentially painful relationship experiences.

I hope you’ll help these researchers learn about the tactics psychopaths use to manipulate and control others in relationships. It could have important implications for therapeutic intervention as well as for broader societal awareness of how psychopaths function in the world, which is desperately needed.

Your time and input will be greatly appreciated. Many thanks to all of you. 

 

♥ The first paragraph of this post comes from THE KNOWN, THE UNKNOWN AND THE UNKNOWABLE. You can read the rest of my story here. 

 

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“Gaslighting” is a term commonly used to describe behavior that is inherently manipulative. At its core, gaslighting is a form of emotional abuse that makes you doubt your own perceptions of reality. The term gaslighting is inspired by the film “Gas Light,” where a husband purposely and systematically manipulates his wife in order to make her feel crazy.

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Intensity or Intimacy? A Relationship Litmus Test

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“I was addicted to a high that only my abuser could give me. Because the lower an abuser puts someone, the higher they can elevate them.”

~ Amanda Domuracki, Culture Shock, The Highs and Lows of Emotional Abuse

 

t seemed that magic had entered our lives. It brought with it once-in-a-lifetime soul-mate love, true romance, amazing sex… We were swept off our feet and taken to an enchanted world just for two, one that floated like a bubble high above the mundane world below.

We never expected that bubble would burst. We believed the incredible intensity we shared indicated a deep connection, one that would last for a lifetime.

Normally, romantic love is an experience that fosters bonding and intimacy. That can’t happen if you’re with someone who isn’t capable of bonding and intimacy. You might not even realize those things are missing when you’re caught up in the extraordinary intensity of your experience and being manipulated and lied to. Smoke and mirrors distracts us from the truth.

bubbles-467509_640“I have flown and fallen, and I have swum deep and drowned, but there should be more to love than ‘I survived it.'”

~ Lisa Mantchev, So Silver Bright

 

Intimacy has to do with trust, understanding, and feeling understood. People who are emotionally intimate can reveal their vulnerabilities without fear of being rejected, ridiculed or invalidated. Intimacy is based on emotional safety, acceptance, respect, and a mutual give-and-take. Without self-disclosure, there can be no intimacy—but intimacy requires that self-disclosure be met with empathy. Empathy means recognizing how someone else feels, understanding it, caring about how that person feels, and then expressing that care.

“There is nothing more intimate in life than simply being understood.”

~ Brad Meltzer, The Inner Circle

 

Intensity, on the other hand, is all about drama, anxiety, uncertainty, and fear. It’s all about push-pull, hot-cold, high-low.

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“I was falling. Falling through time and space and stars and sky and everything in between. I fell for days and weeks and what felt like lifetime across lifetime. I fell until I forgot I was falling.”

~ Jess Rothenberg, The Catastrophic History of You and Me

 

 “Intensity is being completely lost in the emotion of unreasoning desire. It is marked by urgency, sexual desire, anxiety, high risk choices, and the reckless abandonment of what was once valued. All-consuming euphoria similar to recreational drug use (addictive chemical reactions in the brain) …. loss of ability to make rational evaluations of what is true, valuable and worthy. Desire to be always close to that person at any cost.

An intimate relationship is one in which neither party silences, sacrifices, or betrays the self and each party expresses strength and vulnerability, weakness and competence in a balanced way …

Intimacy means that we can be who we are in a relationship, and allow the other person to do the same. ‘Being who we are’ requires that we can talk openly about things that are important to us, that we take a clear position on where we stand on important emotional issues, and that we clarify the limits of what is acceptable and tolerable to us in a relationship.”

~ Excerpt from DANCE OF INTIMACY, by Harriet Lerner, PhD

That’s simply not possible with a psychopath or narcissist. They aren’t capable of emotional intimacy, which means they aren’t capable of healthy relationships.

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“The most important test of intimacy is to ask yourself the question, ‘Is this relationship a safe haven where I feel loved and accepted for being me?'”

~ Randi Kreger, Problems With Emotional Intimacy—Typical for BPs and NP

 

Bonding created by intense emotional highs and lows is maintained by oxytocin (the bonding hormone) and powerful surges of euphoria-inducing dopamine during the highs. During the lows, there is intense craving for more.

Learning theorists have found that a pattern of intermittent reinforcement, which is positive reinforcement alternated with punishment (a pattern of abuse and reward), develops the strongest emotional bonds.

Intermittent good-bad treatment triggers biological changes as well as emotional ones. Going ‘cold turkey’ (having no contact with him or her) may seem impossible. It is the same as an addiction to drugs, alcohol or gambling. This is why you can’t or couldn’t stop thinking about them, despite knowing how bad they were for you.

water-464953_640“Powerful emotional attachments develop from two specific features of abusive relationships: power imbalances and intermittent good-bad treatment.”

~ Dutton and Painter

 

This addictive attachment is known as a Betrayal Bond or Trauma Bond. A trauma bond is a highly addictive attachment to an abuser. Signs of a trauma bond include the inability to detach and self-destructive denial.

Rhonda Freeman, PhD, a neuropsychologist who helps survivors of psychopathic and narcissistic abuse, expertly explains trauma bonding in her article, The Spellbinding Bond to Narcissists and Psychopaths – What’s Happening in the Brain?

“We cannot walk away, though, because without us realizing it, our abuser has become our human needle; our Drug Lord of Love. The person who owns our self-value and self-worth and who, in the name of love, can reject us into deep lows with a single glare, or send us to euphoric highs with one simple smile.”

 ~ Amanda Domuracki

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 “As the relationship goes on, the less safe you feel. That’s a red flag that there’s something really wrong.”

“Your life is loaned to you through an abuser. It is on his or her whim that you thrive, struggle, hope, and fear. In abuse, you can endure a thousand losses for a single, shimmering penny that proves you’ve won something… “

~ Amanda Domuracki

 

Brene Brown, sociologist and expert on social connection, conducted thousands of interviews to find the root of deep social connection. An analysis of the data revealed that it was vulnerability. Vulnerability here does not mean being weak. On the contrary — what it means is the courage to be yourself. It involves uncertainty, exposure, and risk. We may want to run from vulnerability, but it is an inevitable part of social relationships that are to become close and rewarding.

Emotional intimacy comes from being vulnerable enough to allow yourself to be fully known, and to be accepted and understood when you do. That creates the potential for true intimacy. It does come with the risk of rejection, but if you’re rejected you’ll know that you’re not a relationship you should continue.

To know that you are loved for who you are, and to know someone else in all of their vulnerability and to love them as they are, may be one of life’s most fulfilling experiences. Intensity, on the other hand, is the opposite of fulfilling. It’s draining, exhausting, crazymaking, and ultimately empty.

In future relationships we can ask ourselves, “Is this real intimacy or just intensity?”

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Brene Brown — TED talk on the POWER of vulnerability

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