Broken hearts can surrender: to a beat that is tender

Throughout the life of this website, a theme has been materializing within the comments section. Whether you came here while in a place of of dark despair or were further along on your journey, many of you chose to step through the veil of cyberspace to share your pain, your stories, your encouragement and your wisdom. You put your thoughts and feelings into writing, and out of each word, each comment, a song was composed. Your words quietly joined with the words of others and assembled into lyrics and a melody, until your voices–each one unique–sang together in one common song. It is a soulful, poignant and heart-achingly beautiful song. It’s a song about who you are. 

Having heard this song, I can tell you with confidence that what happened to you wasn’t because there was something “wrong” with you, some weakness or gullibility or inherent defect of character or lack of common sense. In fact, I have very often been in awe of those of you who have come here and shared something of yourselves, and of those who I’ve had the privilege of getting to know better. It turns out that the members of this club, if you will–one that none of us chose to join–are actually outstanding people who are able to love deeply, share thoughts and feelings openly, connect meaningfully, care tenderly, and work courageously gaining self-insight. Many of you have had a great deal of success in terms of educational and career achievement, and many are genuinely talented poets, writers, sculptors, painters and musicians… and it is one such musician who inspired me to write this post.

Geoff was inspired to contact me by the Soul Songs page (which contains a collection of a reader’s poetry about her experience of being involved with a psychopathic man). Geoff sent me two of his songs, and I was truly astounded when I listened to them. Their honesty and tenderness touched me deeply. One song is about awakening after his ordeal with a psychopathic woman, and the other about a chance encounter with a woman of a different kind. I thought, “Wow, this is a very talented man.” And then I realized he fits right in with the rest of you, and that I wanted to share not only his music, but my thoughts about you.

Geoff’s note to me:

I have returned to your website after a year or so for various reasons, but mainly because your words resonate deeply within my soul.

I happen to have a couple of ‘Soul Songs’ I wrote last year so I thought I might share them. One is called called ‘Metamorphosis,’ and it describes the excruciating awakening one experiences in the aftermath of a relationship with a psychopath. The other is called ‘Little Soul Sister,’ which describes a chance meeting with a soulful human whilst *busking, who provided a much needed antidote to the poison administered by my psychopathic abuser.

[*Busking is playing music or otherwise performing for voluntary donations in the street or in subways]

And now Geoff’s songs.

When I wrote Metamorphosis, I read and re-read Ovid’s story of Echo and Narcissus. Echo experienced her own devastating aftermath as Ovid describes so beautifully below:
‘Now spurned, she conceals herself in forests, and, in her shame, covers her face with leaves.

From that time on, she lives in lonely caves.
But still her love is there and even grows from the pain of her rejection.
Worries and lack of sleep waste her wretched body.
Poverty shrinks her skin, and all the juices in her body move out into the air.
Only her voice and bones are left.
Her voice still lives.
The story goes her bones were changed to shapes of stone.
Since that time, she hides out in the woods.
No one has ever seen her in the mountains but she is heard by all.
It is the sound which still lives on in her’.
Book III, Metamorphoses, Ovid, 8AD

Metamorphosis

Well I’ve been told, oh I’ve been told
There’s a hole in the centre of my soul
I’m growing old oh I’m growing old
With a hole in the centre of my soul

Chorus
Now I would rather be
Rather be a soulful man
But I don’t really know
Really know who I am
Yes I would rather be
Rather be a soulful man
But I don’t really know
Really know who I am

I’m striking out though hope is lost
It’s time to risk no matter what the cost
Hoodwinked by grief. Swindled by fear
I‘m easily fooled ‘cos they’ve been my friends for years

Chorus
Now I would rather be
Rather be a soulful man
But I don’t really know
Really know who I am
Yes I would rather be
Rather be a soulful man
But I don’t really know
Really know who I am

Narcissus calls when I ignore
My body’s voice, so my body keeps the score
But woken by her soft lament
Nymph Echo bids farewell to my contempt

Chorus
Now I would rather be
Rather be a soulful man
And now I really know
Really know who I am
Yes I would rather be
Rather be a soulful man
And now I really know
Really know who I am

Words and Music: Geoff S., November 2017

Listen:

 

Little Soul Sister

Hey, little soul sister: (I) could’ve easily have missed you
I was just passing by
Hey, little soul sister: we could’ve missed by a whisker
For the rest of our lives

Chorus
I have known you once before
Maybe a thousand years before

And hey, there’ll come a time for singing: it’s a fine way of bringing
Healing into the light

And hey, broken hearts can surrender: to a beat that is tender
In the blink of an eye

Chorus
I have known you once before
Maybe a thousand years before

So hey, I am your soul brother: hope there will be many others’
You can meet by and by

Music and words: Geoff S., August 2017

 

Another lovely and meaningful song from Geoff. This one, about us being a part of something universal, is played using only two chords and is meant to be a meditation:

Quantum of Loneliness

When you look into the Universe
The Universe looks back
You’re not alone in the Universe
Quite the reverse in fact

Because the contents of any distant star
Are the contents of any broken heart

The pieces of a star
Are hidden in our hearts
The pieces of a star
Are hidden in our hearts

When you look into the Universe
Even the sky is black
You’re not alone in the Universe
The Universe looks back

Because the contents of any distant star
Are the contents of any broken heart

The pieces of a star
Are hidden in our hearts
The pieces of a star
Are hidden in our hearts

Words and music: Geoff S., February 2015

 

To hear more of Geoff’s music, visit soundcloud

♥ Never doubt your resilience or your ability to overcome adversity. Embrace and cherish the tenderness of your heart and the depth of your soul, precious human qualities at the very core of who you are. Remember, broken hearts can surrender to a beat that is tender. Give yourself the tender loving kindness you need. It is quite possibly the most healing thing you can do.
 

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